How does that saying go - 'What a difference a day makes". I love the online coaching. I really think this is what keeps me motivated. Between Jorge's enthusiasm to hearing that people are having similar struggles as me - it is a lifeline!
Before I had my daughter - six and a half years ago, I could lose weight relatively easy. Back then I attribute the easy weight loss to how often I was going to the gym, or the fact that I was in my 20's, or even the types of foods I was eating. I couldn't have been more wrong.
Around the same time that I was pregnant, I gave up on anything white - white rice, potatoes, white bread, and regular pasta. I switched to Splenda. I tried to minimize my sweets by eating jello with a low fat, low calorie (processed) whipped cream. And the list goes on...
Having my daughter via C-Section didn't help either. The recoup time was longer. The weight just didn't come off. People would share their stories about how they were able to drop all their baby weight. I tried these "fads" (I can no longer call them diets). My weight yo-yo'd.
I got divorced when my daughter was 6 months old, and had full custody of the brightest light in my life, but I would be lying if I didn't admit the toll it took. My daughter had alot of health conditions and so much of my time was occupied with this specialist or that specialist.
Every year I would get a physical and I always asked for the same test - "please, test my thyroid". "There has to be a reason I can not take the weight off". There has to be more to life than all these excuses.
When she was about three, I went on Nutrisystem. I lost 30lbs. Shortly after the weight crept back and in total, I gained atleast 40. It's hard because as I lose weight now, I have still not reached my highest point before I started Nutrisystem.
I feel like Jorge Cruise's program was made for me. I almost didn't sign up. By the time I found out about this group, his crew initially shut the doors. But then -the opportunity was there and I joined.
Last night's online coaching really brought me to a better place. I do think I am one of these people who thought they were eating the right foods, but sabotaged themselves by the killing off of probiotics. i do think I emotionally ate food.
Last night I listened, and I listened, and I listened.
I do not blame myself for the weight that I have gained. I am no longer going to question - "Can I do this?" It will just take time and after I get this body back running like a fine, oiled machine - I will have plenty of time.
Here is the ying/yang of my life. I hope it does not come across that I am not happy or that I am too hard on myself. My weight has just been based on such pure frustration. I hate not feeling knowledgeable. Jorge has given us that - knowledge. I have such a blessed life and so much to be thankful for (my ying). This has just felt like the missing piece of the puzzle (my yang). Well, last night I found that piece or should I say "peace".
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